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not long ago, you promised to be my guardian angel,
no matter what happens.

you made me feel the warmth.
you told me everything sweet a girl could ever dream of.
even if you didn't mean it,
i really felt loved.

it felt as though i was somewhere up there in your heart.
but now.

where are you?
when i need you,
you're not there.

was that just a dream?
if it was,
i'm awake.
i doubt i will be able to go back into that dream.

but if it isn't a dream,
and this is to go on,
i really won't be able to take it.

please tell me.
i'd rather you stab me straight away,
then to pierce it into me slowly.

i love you,
but i can't take this.
just tell me the truth.

from amadea's blog, edited.

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